9/17/09
My thoughts and emotions are rather jumbled today. Feelings of abandonment, confusion and loneliness. If I didn't have my best friend I don't think I
would have lasted this long. Thoughts of wonder fill my head, spinning me around like a top so when I stop I have no idea where I am or when the dizziness will
cease. A feeling of utter dread that consumes my soul. Wondering if he will ever come for me. Will I ever see him, ever? Why hasn't he contacted me? Does
he not love me, does he not want me? Signs, little signs, say he does. But what are they really? Is it my mind playing tricks on me or is he trying to tell me
something. Sometimes I sit and wonder if he ever was or is real. When will I know? When will the pain stop? Death could not come too soon. Only death could
stop the pain. Pain I have felt for so long that numbness has filled the void. How I long to feel his touch, to feel his warm lips unto mine. To be able to
feel his skin upon my fingers and to know once and for all he is mine. To finally know he is here and I am his. Will it ever be?
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odinsman
06/15/09
LostInEternity99
04/15/09
You have a nice profile, it's great seeing you
at Poetic Constellations. *kudos*
Take care,
Rick
DeadTwista
04/14/09
dawnsconstellation
04/03/09
breathlesrapture
03/28/09
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